Day 16-A picture of you from last year and how you've changed since then

 

So the whole purpose of me starting this blog was because I suck at sharing personal details of my life with people. Because I'm the type of person who would much rather spend time with only my best friends rather then lots of people I kind of know- all the other people usually know nothing about me. Especially this last year, because in this last year alone I have moved from  2 different apartment complexes in Rexburg, to Los Altos CA, Corona CA, then Las Vegas Nevada, and now finally back in Corona, moving that much has not been productive in getting to know people very well. So anyway I kept putting off doing day 16 because I was conflicted if I should go with the picture that shows really the main change in my life or just go the easy route and pick a different one and leave out all the deep personal stuff. So I decided to push myself and go with the hard route. So this is a picture at a friends birthday party, that's me and my ex boyfriend in the back.  I chose this picture because I'm pretty sure its almost been exactly a year since this was taken. So since approximatly a year ago I have been

essentially engaged

put my school on hold

moved for a guy

left the guy

put school back on extremely abruptly

lived with tons of different people

Did an internship at a mental health and substance abuse treatment center

Did an internship at LDS Family Services

GRADUATED WITH MY BACHELORS woot!

worked at a theater shop in Las vegas and hung out with drag queens all day

Went to Mexico

Gone on I have no idea how many dates, had random guys sorta come in my life??or try to at least

Got a tentative diagnosis for my stomach problems

Stopped tanning

Died my hair within an inch of its life

Applied to grad school

Began working with autistic kids

Gone the longest I have gone since high school by far  without a boyfriend

Had amazing times

---So thats a summary of what has happened to me this last year. Now for how I have changed

I am pastier :) seriously people used to ask me if I was mixed

I have come to learn who I want to be when I meet that person I'm supposed to spend forever with.

I toned back how bold I was- any of you who have known me the last few years know this is a good thing

I've been working really hard on being happy even when stuff sucks-had lots of opportunities 

Realized that I am good at what I do and need to stop doubting my abilities

Learned countless life lessons, I have began reaching out more to older people for advice

I've come to love my family more. Came to realize my parents just want to help me

Had relationships (my actual one and the little petite ones) with amazing guys who have changed my life, helped me see my dreams, and who showed me what honorable priesthood holders are like. Saw more than I ever had before how strong love can be.

I learned how to let my heart be free and not confine it

I still coming to terms with the fact that just because my life isnt how it used or how I imagined to be doesn't mean theres something wrong with me or the way I did things

Saw more than ever that I need to trust in the Lord because even though I havnt seen fully the reason for a lot of things, especially why I had to break off that relationship, I know that there is a purpose

Became better at being alone

Let myself do more things that I love, and do something just because I feel like it

Overall came to know my Savior on a level I have never been at before