Day 3-Your idea of a perfect first date

Oh man I have been on so many first dates and definetly have opinions on this. So my best first dates I've ever been on all developed into relationships. What did all my top  first dates have in common? Well for the most part with the exception of one of my favorites it involved being active and doing things outside. For me it really just has to be different, plus for some reason being active outside gets me, I just love it and for me going on a hike or something similar makes the perfect first date. So heres examples of what my most serious relationships first dates were like ( I have never dated a guy that I didnt love the first date).
-this first date was awesome: With my most recent serious boyfriend our first date consisted of going out and digging a cave out of the side of a huuuge snow bank in Rexburg. Then after we got ourselves warm and then went to a buffet. Ok all parts of this date were perfect. Digging out the snow gave us time to chat and get to know eachother and just have fun together. And I just love buffets.
-Once me and this guy went to a place called the Mission Inn (its an  old spanish mission in Riverside, CA) to look at the lights. We ended up running aroudn all throughout the huge mission. We danced, we ran up and down the old staircases, and then later went and ding dong ditched someone in the ward dropping off cookies. It was sooo much fun, and it was random and there wasnt pressure to it. We just kinda ran around town and I loved it.
-Another first date that I really loved was a double date and we went out to this place called the "crack" just outside of Rexburg its basically a crack in between two high cliffs. We shot guns (even though I'm not really pro gun, this was fun because we were just shooting targets) then the boys built a bonfire and we roasted hot dogs, made smores and all sung as my date played guitar. It was great, original and just relaxed.
- Ok so this one was a blind date, and normally I dont agree to such things but my best friend vanessa was very pursuasive. So the guy calls me before the date asks me what my favorite desert is (brownies) and then asked me what my top 3 ice creams were. So then the night of our date comes, we went out dancing and then  after played games and he scooped me up all 3 flavors of ice cream. The next day he left flowers on my doorstep with a card just saying that he had an amazing time the night before and that he couldnt stop thinking about me.. He was cute we dated 7 months. He was my first love. Things like that just get me (only if I like them if I dont I think they are creepy).
- Ok for my last favorite first date I'll mention, this was another guy I dated for a really long time. For our first date we went and grabbed mcflurries, then went out mudding to the internment camp outside of Rexburg and the haunted swings. Well we actually didnt intend to go mudding but it was rexburg in the spring so of course it was muddy. The car was completly covered. We ended up washing the car together and were just running all around town the whole night.


OK so I gave all these examples to show that I just love fun dates. Going out to a nice dinner is not my thing. I looove doing fun crazy random things. I like there to just be spontaneity and to just do something and be with someone who knows how to just be fun. I hate when dates are stiff. Plus outdoors dates are so much better because then I dont feel as much pressure to look nice. :) I love dates really I do.

Day 2-Meaning behind your blog name- Prone to Wander

So my actual web address comes from my most favorite and one of the most powerful songs of all time. (My dear friend Emily actually just did a blog entry about it the other day- sorry em!) Come thou Fount gives me chills and makes me cry almost everytime I hear it. I know I'm a cry baby but its powerful. I am prone to wander, all the lyrics sum up what I feel on a constant basis and what I want to tell my Heavenly Father. Here are the lyrics...

1.     Come, thou Fount of every blessing, 
 tune my heart to sing thy grace; 
 streams of mercy, never ceasing, 
 call for songs of loudest praise. 
 Teach me some melodious sonnet, 
 sung by flaming tongues above. 
 Praise the mount! I'm fixed upon it, 
 mount of thy redeeming love. 

2. Here I raise mine Ebenezer; 
 hither by thy help I'm come; 
 and I hope, by thy good pleasure, 
 safely to arrive at home. 
 Jesus sought me when a stranger, 
 wandering from the fold of God; 
 he, to rescue me from danger, 
 interposed his precious blood. 

3. O to grace how great a debtor 
 daily I'm constrained to be! 
 Let thy goodness, like a fetter, 
 bind my wandering heart to thee. 
 Prone to wander, Lord, I feel it, 
 prone to leave the God I love; 
 here's my heart, O take and seal it, 
 seal it for thy courts above. 

And here it is sung and it will give you goosebumps everytime.

The main title of my blog mostly just comes from how I feel about the last few years of my life :)

Day 1- recent picture, 15 interesting facts

15 Interesting Facts
1. I have had glasses since the first grade and got contacts in the 7th grade.
2. I almost always sleep with my windows partially open even when its freezing just because I like breathing fresh air.
3. Amazing paintings make me cry.
4. I dont really like huge parties I would much rather just hang out with some close friends.
5. I think its really weird when guys wear skinny jeans or care more about clothes than I do seriously it wierds me out when you spend 100 dollars on a pair of jeans.The same goes for messenger bags on guys.
6. I want to marry a sexy black man, or a Hispanic man who can sing and dance or really any dark man... that is all.
7. Once this last summer I dyed my hair 4 times in 2 weeks.
8. I love old stuff. I like antique furniture, old books, old lady cardigans, cameo jewelery, old lace, old art, old diaries.
9. I love the color yellow. It makes me happy, wearing it makes me happy, I just painted my walls yellow I just think its wonderful.
10. I dance in random places. Not just little dancing full out dancing.
11. I dont have as much fun hanging out with normal people.
12. I loooooovee camping and hiking. One of the best semesters I had at school was when I went camping almost every weekend it was great, and hiking by myself is one of my favorite things.
13. I go by myself and do yoga or read outdoors. There was this spot a little outside Rexburg that I'd always ride my bike to, sometimes I would even just nap there.
14. I dream of owning a craftsman style home.

15. I'm obsessed with books, instead of spending too much on clothes like most girls I prefer to spend it on books.

Recent picture- today

30 Day Blog Challenge (I stole this idea from Deborah)

 So since I have a hard time thinking of blog entries I'm going to be doing this 30 day blog challenge!
Day 1-Introduce, recent picture, 15 interesting facts
Day 2-Meaning behind your blog name
Day 3-Your idea of a perfect first date
Day 4-Your parents
Day 5-Your siblings
Day 6-A picture of something that makes you happy
Day 7-Your dream wedding
Day 8-A place you've traveled to
Day 9-A picture of your friends
Day 10-Something you're afraid of
Day 11-Favorite tv shows
Day 12-What you believe
Day 13-Goals
Day 14-A picture you love
Day 15-Something you can't leave the house with out
Day 16-A picture of you from last year and how you've changed since then
Day 17-Something you're looking forward to
Day 18-Something you regret
Day 19-Something you miss
Day 20-Nicknames
Day 21-Your love life
Day 22-Favorite city
Day 23-Favorite vacation
Day 24-Something you've learned
Day 25-A photo of something that means a lot to you
Day 26-Picture of your family
Day 27-Pets
Day 28-Something that stresses you out
Day 29-3 Wishes
Day 30-a picture of you today and 3 good things that have happened to you today

I LOVE.....

Watching this video reminds me that I have so much to be greatful for. I have had more joy in a weeks time than a lot of people have been able to have in a lifetime. I think of all the people who have had such hard things in thier life like this woman, yet thhey still have stronger faith and hope than I do. Today I am greatful for...
-My autistic clients- they show me Christs hand in my life everyday, and show me what real love and joy is.
-Today I got to see Ambers newborn. Me and Amber have been best friends since birth (we were born 2 days apart) Seeing her new baby boy gave me so much joy and showed me what I can have one day- and how beautiful families are. I am greatful for Amber and her husband and especially for Logan at this time. Being able to hold a newborn humbles you and you automatically can feel connected to something far greater than yourself.

-The stars, I guess lately I just have been in need of things that help me realize I'm part of something so much bigger than me. Thats why I must press forward, because even though I am small compared to the countless stars, I can still be part of a constellation :)
- My Dad. I asked my dad for a blessing this week, I really needed it and I'm just constantly amazed at my dads faith, stamina, and just how great he is. I am undeserving and he is the greatest man I have ever known, and I wish I could have half as good of a soul as him one day. Although he has given me unrealistic expectations when it comes to men because I doubt I'll ever find one to marry that measures up to my dad.

My dad is smart, he does more than anyone asks of him in the church, he's the most patient person I know, hes hilarious, amazing with kids, he does 100 mile bike rides in Death Valley for fun even though he only is able to use some of his lungs (that he messed up from some odd disease he got from building an add on to our house), he has 2 masters degrees, everyone who has ever worked for him loves his guts, he has managed to be scout master for probably 100's of boys, He payed for my education one of the greatest gifts I could have ever asked for, he gets my oil changed, can fix anything, and he showed me how to live my life in the best way possible. I love him, you know you wish your dad was as cool as mine.

Dont look back

I am guilty of allowing circumstances and people affecting my testimony in negative ways. Dont get me wrong my testimony has always been inside me, but I have let it waver at times when I was dating certain boys or when I was living in certain places. I decided back in April I wasnt going to let that happen anymore. I'm not going to let my priorities get skewed because a cute boy comes along or because I end up living somewhere that is a little more difficult to stay strong than Rexburg. I wont be that anymore. I've realized since I ended an extremly serious relationship back in April that NOTHING is worth it if you come away from it with a smaller testimony, if you feel less uplifted when your with someone then you probably should try to figure out why that is and if you should stay with them. And then you never look back to them. You move on and you change your life.  In the book Eat Pray Love, Elizabeth Gilbert puts wonderfully what love can be like and what its purpose is even if that person isnt right, she says..

"People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that's what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life.A soul mates purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life, then introduce you to your spiritual master..."

For me thats what the boy did for me,and still continues to do for me. But it wasnt him that made me change my life. It was my Heavenly Father, and he recognizes so much more in me than I have even a tiny comprehension of. I dont know where my life is going but he does, and I cant let my own stupidity ruin what he has in store for me. 

 The Rexburg, ID temple, Rexburg is the place that changed my life, opened my eyes about art, history, love, nature and life in general. It is beautiful in every way, and I hope I get to take my children to study at the University there one day.

Doing what I love to do

A little flashback- that I really needed right now, watch it you wont regret it ;)

I desperatly want my own place

I have a huge desire to have my own place. Not just because I want to be away from people because I don't.I love living with people just the people I choose to live with, like if I could live with my best friend it would be great. I just want to for the first time in my life pay for somewhere that is completely my own. I don't care if people rent from me I just want to know that I own it. That it is overall my place. I suppose its a dream of every little girl to grow up and buy a house with their husband and then decorate it and paint it and make it their home. I guess when you think of it you don't really realize that you come to want something after renting forever and living with a whole bunch of girls you don't know that there will come a day when you just want to come home and not have to think about encroaching on anyone else s space or life who doesn't want you there. Dont get me wrong I have had some of the worlds best roommates and made lots of amazing friends through roommates, but I just want a space that is completely my own. I've been so obsessed with it lately since I have a lot of time on my hands without a job, that I look up decorating ideas and things. I would love a loft. Thats  just mine and what I really want is to have enough room for lots and lots of books. Thats one of my huge dreams, to have a library . Right now I have two tall bookshelves full of books but I want more. And I think there's nothing more beautiful than a huge tall wall with books filling it. I want a place that has huge windows, tall ceilings, and books covering the walls a place for me to do yoga and not have anyone telling me what to do or where to go. I want for the first time in my life to not feel like I have to do what someone else wants me to just because I'm being supported financially by them. I just want to have complete financial freedom and I suppose I feel like having my own place with my books and just a place where I can come home and just be completely me signifies that potential freedom.

Out of Wedlock pregnancy and teen marriage

My friend Patrick Mayo is going to be giving me some prompts to make me actually write on my blog, and he gave me this one. The thing is this has been on my mind like crazy because I just finished my internship working with LDS Family Services working with birth mothers for adoption, and because my 16 year old cousin who used to live with me is getting married. I feel I probably have a different perspective of both of these things than most others. At my internship and several other times I would hear from the mothers of these girls and from people in general that they would ground their daughter forever if she got pregnant out of wedlock, Or that they would disown their pregnant daughter, and non relatives say that they tend to ignore those girls.. All of these options that so many seem to take when someone does become pregnant out of wedlock definitely leave something to be desired to me. These girls must have been lacking something they were missing- and they sought out something- anything to fill that void in their life. They may have done something wrong and definitely not what others had planned for them, but who hasn't made mistakes before? Their mistake led to something that they will be paying heavily for the rest of their life. Even if a girl places the child for adoption this will still be a huge weight on her the rest of her life. She needs so much support-not constant talk of how others are disappointed in her. Girls who place children for adoption are giving up something that is natural for them to love so much, most likely more than anyone else they have ever loved. For these girls they still will generally have that bond that a mother has with her child. Can you imagine placing your child for adoption? Or even trying to make that decision? For me if I ever was in that situation( which I definitely don't plan on being) I really don't think I'm strong enough to place my child for adoption. I don't think I would be strong enough to go on living a successful life after the sorrow of giving up my child. For all these reasons I just wish that more support would be given to these women. Who feel like they have no way out and are paying the ultimate price for their mistakes. In regards to teenage marriage, these girls obviously felt that that person filled some part of their life that wasn't filled before. When I think back to the first time I thought I was in love, I think of how most girls think the same as I thought when I was young, that it would be that person I was really crazy about . For my cousin I know she had a lot of family struggles and when someone comes along who supports her more than anyone ever has and pays more attention to her then anyone else, there obviously is going to be a strong desire to make that "love" official. Anyway so my hope is just that more love and support could be given to these struggling girls. Just some Social Workers rantings.